Here & Now

beach at sunsetThe here & now and I have a tumultuous relationship. I rarely want to be here, now. Struggling to be in the present, you can imagine how well I handle change. Not very. (Unless, of course, it’s change that I planned. You other Type A’ers know exactly what I’m talking about.)

It isn’t just me that struggles, though. Everyone seems to struggle when change bucks their ideas about the here & now; even about what you should be doing right here, right now.

My husband and I got married a little too soon, for example. “You’re so young,” people said, “don’t you want to see who else you might meet before settling?”

And we started making babies a little soon. “Well you didn’t waste much time did you? Was it an accident?”

And then we told people that we’d made a baby a little soon. “Just 7 weeks along? You’re making it public a little early, don’t you think? What if something happens?”

What if something happens? What if something happens? Maybe the reason I struggle – like many others – to live in the here & now is because we are too wrapped up in the land of what if. In the land of what if, we are incapable of embracing the here & now.

What if anxiously anticipates future problems. The here & now has no such expectations.

What if is often wrought with worry. Here & now is often filled with hope.

What if is never satisfied, here & now is completely so.

Don’t get me wrong, I haven’t arrived. I’m not sure the train has even left the station. What I do see more clearly than ever is that life bursts about the here & now. I don’t want to miss it.

I want to be here, now.

7 Comments

  1. Donna Reeves on May 23, 2013 at 9:16 pm

    I agree. Being a forward thinker keeps you moving in positive directions. Have a great now day.-Donna

    • Victoria Wilson on May 23, 2013 at 9:27 pm

      Thanks for reading Donna 🙂 (Enjoying reading about your adventures in Florida!)

  2. Christine Headrick on May 23, 2013 at 10:56 pm

    Well-intentioned naysayers.

    • Victoria Wilson on May 27, 2013 at 10:39 am

      That’s exactly right Christine. Exactly right. (Thanks for reading!)

  3. Kaela on May 23, 2013 at 11:03 pm

    Being in the present while in a world that is forever wrapped in the future, is what Christ calls us to. Yet in those moment when we just desire to exist and not fret about the what-ifs of tomorrow, the world wins. This is one of the battles that we are forever plagued with, because Satan knows that he gets on one what-if, you’ll take a seat on that seat and ride away from the moment Christ wanted you to dwell with Him.

    • Victoria Wilson on May 27, 2013 at 10:39 am

      It’s the “already, not yet”, isn’t it Kaela? Thanks so much for your thoughtful comment, and for reading!

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